I was in SM today. I rode the jeep, how horribly dissatisfying that was. I walked from the police station all the way to the South Wing, passing by countless girls who look like extras in Hairspray. I met up with my dad and he let me drive again, like I’ve never done that thing before in my whole life. Making a quick turn near the Pope John Paul II tower, out of carelessness on my part, I almost ran over a couple with matching t-shirts. The girl was still holding on to her man even after I proffered quick apologies and drove silently off.
The thought of that couple made me want to find a relationship. I mean, I’m a nice guy. I stay in school. I have a cool job in The Spectrum. I don’t do drugs (yes, that includes DOTA), and I sleep according to a fairly reasonable bed time. I’m perfectly normal and fit to handle a relationship right now. But I guess it’s not my time yet. Maybe in the future? I don’t know.
I entered my house and I thought about a certain someone I haven’t talked with in a couple of days. And this person used to be the best part of my day. She still is, for that matter.
I thought about it, and I decided it would be a great idea to share our story with you guys. I just deem it fit. Okay, so here goes.
I was in the middle of an emotional crisis when I met Margaret “Maggie” Yusay. I knew her because she was my best friend’s girlfriend at the time. I only knew her on Facebook and I never really got the chance to see her in person. I remember liking her profile picture once and I commented “Awesome” on it and she never believed me. That was actually the first time I “talked” to her. At first, she didn’t really catch my attention that much. I mean, she was the 14 year old girlfriend of my best friend. I didn’t exactly know what to say. So we stayed as anonymous Facebook friends for like a month, not minding each other.
It wasn’t until a fateful November morning where I got a text. It was from her. A group message. It was her new Sun number and she wanted people to text her. Since I had unlimited Sun to Sun texts for like 30 months, I did text her. And it was a school day, I was basically not minding school just to text someone who just popped out of nowhere.
I kept on calling her “Maggie Y” during our first few days of new found friendship. And one day, when I was planning a video shoot, we texted long into the night. She was studying for her exams and even though I was busy like hell, I took the time to text her. We exchanged texts like there was no tomorrow and before I knew it, my inbox was almost full. I began to feel at ease with her.
Things went up a notch when she went on her Cebu-Bohol trip. I left her wondering why I was texting her when she was on her trip. I was having my exams and I usually didn’t finish studying my lessons just so I can text her. I began to feel like she’s becoming a part of my routine. The most memorable thing about it was probably when I studied for my Chem exam and she stayed up until 2AM texting me. When the clock stuck 11:11 pm, she told me to make a wish. So we did. I asked her what her wish was and she said that she hoped that a guy would come in her life with the intention of staying and for that guy to treat her right. At that time, I didn’t have any reactions. When she asked me what my wish was, I told her that I wished she would go jogging with me. It was a pretty risky thing. Not knowing what she might say, my heart sank. But what she said put me at ease.
“I can always make that come true, you know. :)”
And at that moment, I had chills. I know it might not be breaking news, but it is important to me. I couldn’t stop smiling. I started to feel like she liked me. Good thing, I thought, because I’m really in to her now. When she came back, we exchanged wall posts and I would put her name as my status update in Facebook. We started to become close enough for people to notice. My friends back at home would start calling me “Mags” and her friends would start teasing her too. We both shrugged the idea off and just stayed as buddies. Our chats would be filled with life, as we would stay on Facebook for like 4 hours straight just chatting about each other’s lives.
I remember one time, when the topic started to drift away, we ended up talking about who we like and stuff. She said, after I said that I can’t believe that one of her friends liked me, “You’re a really likeable person.” I was a pretty AWWWWWW moment for me, so I told her she was likeable too. So the feeling was mutual. And that was it. It was official. I realized that she was the one my heart was beating for. She was the very reason I even enjoy life that time.
I started my day by texting her “Good morning, Maggie. :)” and ended it with a “Good night, beautiful. :)” My friends began to wonder who I was texting whenever I would go out with them. I wished I could tell them my “would-be” girlfriend. But no.
Then came one of my biggest problems.
We haven’t met in person yet. Every time I try to meet up, she’s always busy with something. The closest I got to a meeting with her was on Skype. God, she looked so majestic. And the first time I heard her voice on the phone, I couldn’t help but to thank God for making me so blessed to hear such an angelic voice. So not meeting her remained to be my problem. But it’s okay, I thought, there’s always a time for that.
A month passed and school was back. I was still texting her. For the first few weeks, everything seemed perfectly normal. But as a few more weeks passed, things between us started to worsen. I could feel like she was losing interest. At first I thought she was just stressed with all her swimming and school work. And it turned out to be that way, for like a week. Then, the silence worsened. She’d go home kind of mad at the world. She started snobbing my texts. She would sometimes ignore me on Facebook and on Twitter. I tried to get things back together, to cut the long story short. And they did. Two weeks ago, we started talking again. It was a pretty blissful moment. I really really missed her.
I told her I got her something for Valentine’s Day. I also told her I liked her. She couldn’t believe it at first, but in the end, she said she was okay with it. Everything’s alright once again, or so I thought. During the weekday, I would text her and not a single reply. Thinking maybe she just didn’t have load, I tried to be patient with her. But as I chatted with her last Friday, she seemed mad at the world again, and this time, at me. And she mentioned she had a boyfriend already. I don’t know if was telling the truth or it was just a scheme to make me jealous. But it did make me jealous. She got mad when I kept asking her if there was something wrong and she left me wondering what I could have possibly done wrong to deserve such treatment.
Until now, we haven’t talked. I still think she’s mad at me. And I’m starting to believe that she has indeed found someone new. It’s killing me every time I think about it.
So Maggie, if you’re reading this, I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY. I wonder whatever happened to the time when you said I always put you in a good mood. I really wish we could go back to when no one else mattered, just you and me. We haven’t even met yet, but you’re breaking my heart with every second of this silence. I miss the cheerfulness you bring, the smile you always put on my face, and that feeling of comfort inside my heart every time you’re there.
Maggie Yusay, you’re important to me and I’m afraid to lose you. I just want us to go back to the old times when all we did was to laugh, share every detail of our lives, and just having a good time. Just you and I, Mags, two youngsters with nothing to lose, just enjoying each other’s company. I really wish we could talk again soon, and maybe this time, meet up. I’ll be waiting, and I know for sure, it’ll all be worth the wait. :)
I cherish you, Maggie. And I feel so blessed to have crossed paths with someone like you. :)
Maggie, your cutie patootie awesome-ness always gets the best of me. :)
Sincerely,
Someone who thinks you’re immaculately majestic. :)
